Arise My Love!

I made a decision today to live it according to God's will. It could have went either way if I'm going to be honest. Not that I would have just went out and became a delinquent but I have had my share of rebellion lately.
Let me tell you what happens when you cry out to God. I did cry out last night. I didn't feel anything life-changing throughout the night or this morning. But I did have a wonderful friend send me a message with 2 scriptures that God had placed on her heart for me. And once I read them something happened. I can't really explain it other than it gave me a sense of hope. God knew exactly what I needed. He has been trying to talk to me the past few days more than ever and I have put up the hand in rebellion. You know when you tell someone to "talk to the hand". Now God could have moved on and thought this girl is disrespectful and I'm just going to move on. But He didn't. He didn't give up on me even when I tested the waters to the extreme.
I think maybe I test people in order to see if they are going to stick with me or if they are going to leave me. I've had alot of that in my life. I've tested people's hearts maybe without even knowing it and have been hurt to the point of no return. I have a special song that I usually only hear around Easter and yesterday morning in my despair it came on the radio and I heard God say "Arise My Love". This song is about His son but He was telling me to not give up. This is the song I'm talking about.
God told me that the grave no longer had a hold on me that I am a new creation and I need to remember that in the midst of every trial. The enemy wants to remind me of my old nature and he wants me destroyed. I also think back to what I've endured in my life and if I've had to fight so hard to get to where I am today ~ then the enemy has something to fear in me. And although I felt like I was close to giving up yesterday, I choose to stand today. I will not let the grave have a hold on me any longer. I am new in Christ. I didn't come this far to just give up and I hope in the midst of whatever you are going through today that you will not allow it either. If you have to fight for every step you take, then think about why that is. You have something huge just around the corner and the enemy wants to make sure that you don't reach it. I've tried to end my life several times but God kept me alive. There is a reason for that. I didn't get on my knees daily to pray for my children to allow the enemy this foothold. My kids need me to pray for them if nothing else. I see that God is answering my prayers. And the enemy can just kiss my butt because I've had it with his schemes. All the anger I've had lately will be directed in the right place ~ at my adversary ~ Satan!
Let the Lord be with you today and remember to fight in the right way. Not with words like I have lately but with the fruits of the Spirit. These are the scriptures that were shared with me this morning. I pray that they will calm your heart like they did mine today.

"Anyone who receives instruction in the word must share all good things with his instructor. Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows. 8The one who sows to please his sinful nature, from that nature[a]will reap destruction; the one who sows to please the Spirit, from the Spirit will reap eternal life. 9Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. 10Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good to all people, especially to those who belong to the family of believers." Galatians 6:6-10

"The acts of the sinful nature are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery;idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God. But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law. Galatians 5:19-23