Have you ever had to put so much faith in God that your family depends on it? I'm not just talking about what we as individuals need but the livelihood of all you know depends upon it. Our family is at a difficult crossroad right now but thankfully I can put all my trust in God. It's like I told my husband last night....if I wasn't able to do that I don't know what I would do. I would have given up long ago. There are days that, believe me, it would be much better to go to sleep and not wake up to face another day of the same thing. The same difficulties as the day before. But I have to look at it in another way. It's not the same day of difficulties, it's a day closer to the breakthrough. Every day I keep telling myself. Push through this day Lori. It might be the last one in this healing process. You might actually make it to the end today. It's that hope in knowing that I'm continually working towards a life of joy, happiness and freedom. Freedom in knowing who I am and what I was put on this earth for. I'm ready to stand before millions and help change lives.
This morning I had a breakthrough in my life. I was praying and journaling about some of the people in my life I love the most...being my children. God spoke to me clearly and said that He loved my children before they were born. He knew the struggles they would endure and He put special qualities and characteristics inside of them to allow them to push through and win any battle placed before them. He asked me to stop rebuking myself and live life. To stop beating myself up for any damage I feel I might have caused. They will heal and be stronger and better for all the struggles in their lives. They can use their testimonies just as well as I have. In fact I think better. I pray every day for my children to reach people in a way that I can't. I know God has big plans for all of them. He's shown me and I'm standing on the promises I've been shown.
So today I will stand praying that very soon will be the last day of this season of healing. If I give up today.....what if tomorrow would have been "THE DAY". The day of turning everything around. The day of rewards. The day of such joy and peace that I can't contain myself. This is the kind of "what if's" I love to live for.
I'm pleading with you to not give up today either. Find your joy in the Lord and seek Him. Cry out to Him and let Him know you need Him. What if your dream is waiting when you wake up tomorrow? Are you willing to miss out on that? I know I'm not.
"Flesh gives birth to flesh, but the Spirit gives birth to spirit. You should not be surprised at my saying, 'You must be born again.' The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going." John 3:6-8
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