I'm looking around my house at what a mess it is. I have friends coming over and I'm thinking I don't have any cookies made, I don't have laundry done and I don't have the house cleaned. It seems a little overwhelming to say the least. I have so much to do before 3:00. But then God reminded that I need to look at what is really important. It doesn't matter if the house is spotless. I doesn't matter if cookies are made. Snacks can be something simple and the laundry will get done eventually. God showed me why the house is a mess.
It's because I spent time with the Grandkids. I made an extra special breakfast. We painted even allowing the youngest which is 16 months old to finger paint. And kissed a Granddaughter that fell on her bike and needed some extra hugs and attention. God reminded me that everything I did this morning was way more important than preparing for a perfect visit with company.
I think it's like that for all of us every single day. We want everything to be perfect and spotless. Even ourselves. I know when my boys were little I was very bad about making sure the house was always very clean even to the point of a magazine on the stand had to be in a certain spot. If the boys would move it, it would frustrate me. Maybe I had a little OCD. And to be honest, I'm sure the 3 boys would move the magazine and go off in a corner just to watch me and my frustration. I'm sure it was a fun game for them to watch. I look back and wish I would have taken more time with them. I wish I would have taken the time to paint more, to ride bikes together more and to just plain have fun with them. I know that God is giving me Grandchildren to be redeemed and to know that I have Motherhood inside me, even when I never felt like a good Mom.
The other thing I realized is that I probably needed the house spotless because I wasn't spotless myself. I was a mess. My heart was damaged and all over the place. I was trying to cope with life by numbing with an eating disorder. To this day I want to be perfect for God. I want Him to be proud of me. But He doesn't expect us to be perfect. That's why His son died on the cross for us. We were made spotless by Jesus. We can be and look messy and that's perfectly fine. That just makes us normal. It means that we are allowing ourselves to be vulnerable and not come across as we have everything together. Just think, if we were to show how scared and frustrated we were more, others would realize that they are normal as well. We seem to live in a world that focuses on money and big houses and cars. And look at where our youth are at today. It's scary.
God is telling us to spend more time with our children, grandchildren and love them and teach them in the way they should go. But that just doesn't stop with our closest family. Others need to see that as Christians we are not perfect and we don't have it all figured out. That's why we have God. He helps us through any storm. If we had it all put together neatly then we wouldn't need Him and we would be just like everyone else in the world. Who wants that? I want to be unique. I want to help change the world. Even if that means I live in a messy house and I still struggle with life. I know that painting and laughing with my family is worth anything money can buy. This is life! This is the feeling God created me to have. Self worth for myself and for my family!
I might have shared this before. But I felt drawn to share it once again. This is your life. Is it everything you dreamed it would be? Click to Watch
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