Redemption Time!

Yes it's been awhile since I've done any blogging. I have kept myself busy. Notice how I've said that I am the one that have kept myself busy. Unfortunately it's been more busyness to keep me from thinking too much. It is not the appropriate "busyness" if there is such a thing.
My life is still as crazy as ever. Or maybe I should say just as emotional. I try very hard to not let my emotions get the better of me, but sometimes no matter how hard I try, the tears start flowing and I can't stop the spout no matter how hard I try. This past Sunday was a prime example. I went and spent the weekend with my youngest son. And it is always overwhelming. Not just the seeing him but the Parent Seminar we attend. I learn more and more about myself every time I go. You would like to say if anyone is attending a seminar as parents with troubled children that the whole focus would be on the children's issues. But God always has a bigger plan for me and not my son. I can try to figure him out all I want but he is not the one I can work on. I can only work on myself and pray for him.
I will have some life changes this weekend. My husband and I will be having grandchildren move in with us. Most of you would say "So. What is the big deal?" It really isn't a "big deal". I love these little people. But I'm used to having alone, quiet time. I told a friend of mine yesterday that it's not like I have 9 months to prepare for the change of children in the house. I have a week. I have 2 choices however. I can face it head on or I can lay around and feel sorry for myself. And to be honest, I did the latter yesterday. I didn't take a shower. I didn't even get out of my pajamas all day long. I was drained and I didn't care who noticed.
But God spoke to me yesterday. Every situation is a healing moment. And this is a huge one for me. He has told me that spending time with our grandchildren and living a life with them no matter how long the length will show me that I am not a terrible Mom. That I have changed. It is redemption time. And I wouldn't have had that if I would have stuck my head in the sand and not answered the call God is giving me right now.
Of course I haven't even begun this new season, but I'm ready for it. I'm not going to sit back and worry about it. I will face my fear and I will be victorious in all of it and have A LOT of fun along the way!

“Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.”- Ephesians 4:32