What does uniqueness mean? I think about what my next venture is and it is unique to say the least but I am loving every minute of it. I wonder what will people think? Will this be outside of the box too much? And then I quickly shift gears. Do I really care? I didn't care years ago when I was doing the not so glorious things in my life. Well I did care but numbing out usually took care of that.
So here I am high on life and not feeling the need to numb out. I can take the good with the bad and not feel like I am going to lose any battle. Sure my life is not perfect. It is far from it. But I choose to look at it as a step in my walk of victory. I can choose to crumble to the ground or I can choose to live this day like it may be my last. And what would I want to be remembered for? For all the shameful things in the past or the ones following which include helping women to be all that they can be. Sounds like an Army commercial.
I was eating with great women last night and one of them was talking about being a warrior and putting on war makeup and the whole nine yards. So I pictured myself earlier today in a certain situation with ninja clothes kicking the crap out of the enemy and the battle he put before me. What a great feeling that was. And I feel the same way about my past. I'm kicking that every which way but loose. It is no longer connected or a part of who I am. I chose that today and will continue to live my life as a victor......no longer a victim!
I have talked to a couple of women today and telling them I was so excited for them that I wanted to do a victory dance in my living room for them. And they both said, "okay I'll watch". And then I thought - crap can I really do that? And I didn't. But I love to dance so what is my problem? I wish now I would have done that dance for the two of them. I want to dance at all times like no one is watching and who really cares if they actually are. I am going to celebrate my victories as well as those people I love around me. And I know very soon I will be dancing the fastest, longest victory dance for my son. And I can't wait. He will look at me like I'm a crazy person but I don't care. I'm going to celebrate his coming home....really coming home. Not just coming back to a life of what once was but the new life he was meant to live. And then I know I have 2 more son dances ahead of me and I can't wait for those either.
So next time you see me dancing....know that I am dancing for the lives that are being changed and when you have a victory drop me a line and I will be dancing for you as well!!!!
"If with heart and soul you're doing good, do you think you can be stopped? Even if you suffer for it, you're still better off. Don't give the opposition a second thought. Through thick and thin, keep your hearts at attention, in adoration before Christ, your Master. Be ready to speak up and tell anyone who asks why you're living the way you are, and always with the utmost courtesy. Keep a clear conscience before God so that when people throw mud at you, none of it will stick. They'll end up realizing that they're the ones who need a bath. It's better to suffer for doing good, if that's what God wants, than to be punished for doing bad. That's what Christ did definitively: suffered because of others' sins, the Righteous One for the unrighteous ones. He went through it all—was put to death and then made alive—to bring us to God." 1 Peter 3:13-18 (The Message)
LIVE LIKE WE ARE DYING!!!! C'mon dance with me!!!!
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