My life has been changing in such a big way. I think of all the prayers I have had along the years but the constant ones were for my boys and to be able to reach millions. I can remember there were times that I would just think if someone only believed in me I could handle and do more. When I was single, I felt like I needed to wait till I was married to actually find a true ministry. When I was working in a job I didn't really like some years ago, I thought if I only had a different job I could find what I was called to do.
But there was a certain point in my life that I just wanted to serve God and other people. It didn't matter what my circumstances were. I was going to take the time to once and for all heal what needed to be healed inside of me. And I didn't need anyone holding my hand to do that. All I needed was a heart that wanted to change. Because I know that God had waited years for me so I didn't need to worry about His presence in my life.
I look at how well things are going in my life right now and I have to praise God every single day. He is answering prayers in my sons but He is taking me on a journey of happiness that I could have never dreamed was possible. I was worshiping this morning and started crying. How in the world would someone want to do such good things for a woman like me. I had done so many awful things in my life. I knew for sure I didn't deserve it. But I know none of us deserve anything in life. We are made deserving through Jesus Christ.
So if you are reading this and thinking "My life will never change. I am all alone." Just know that you are never alone. God is by your side. Know that all you need to do is pray and ask but also get to a place that you can allow God to do a mighty work in your heart. It's not our knowledge that keeps us from our true destiny in life, it's our hearts. We have been through some heartaches here and there and our heart stores those memories. It's time to release those memories to God. Start with a clean slate. Your heart was designed to hold love that is poured in by our Heavenly Father and that is done through Him and people He puts in our path. Once it is filled with the proper love, it will overflow and pour out into others. But you have to find the love in your own heart first.
I can say this because I have lived it. Like I said before....how could God use a person like me? But why not me? Why not you? I don't want my blessings to be given to someone else because I'm too stubborn to look into my own mirror and realize what I need to work on. I'm still a work in progress but I'm definitely enjoying the benefits right now. Thank you God!
"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9 (NIV)
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