Have you ever been so excited about what's going to happen next but didn't know why? It's like the anticipation of Christmas morning as a child. I feel like something big is just around the corner and I don't know what it is but if God is in control of it, I know I am going to absolutely love it!
So here is the obstacle in that....trusting God to lead and not wanting to make my own desires happen. I have be seeing and praying for so many things that I'm unsure of how it all plays together. And there times that I feel like I'm reaching out to something thinking or hoping it could be it. At the same time I reach out with reluctance wondering why God would bless me that big to begin with. I've wanted to be used to reach millions of women for so long and I' know God has put me in places that I've been able to share my testimony. But I want to do more. I want God to use me for life changes in women. I want God to speak through me to heal women in a way that they never thought was possible.
But I'm hungry for more. I am ready to push on to larger venues. I know God hasn't put this excitement in me for no reason. He is not going to say pray to me and I'll give you the desires of your heart and then say "Sorry - Just Kidding". God is not into sick practical jokes. That is Satan. Anytime we feel discouraged or upset when things are not going our way, that is of the enemy. We sometimes wonder why God is not taking care of this situation. But I know without a doubt at some time in our lives, we will look back and realize exactly what God was doing all along. It is not our timing, but God's. He is orchestrating every person and situation that needs to happen before the true blessings are received. Otherwise it would be a half-blessing. And quite honestly I've had half-blessings before and they didn't turn out to be what I wanted at all. And the reason they were half-blessings is because I saw it in front of me and I reached too soon. It's like taking a loaf of bread out of the oven before it's done. It looks good in the oven and it smells wonderful. But once you take it out, it falls. That's what happens when we take our blessings before God intended to give them to us.
So I'm sitting outside, smelling the sweet aroma and pondering on what is next. But I think I'll wait for God to take it out of the oven for me. Because I want to know that it is ready to devour. Devour for my happiness and joy in life. What about you?
"So, what do you think? With God on our side like this, how can we lose? If God didn't hesitate to put everything on the line for us, embracing our condition and exposing himself to the worst by sending his own Son, is there anything else he wouldn't gladly and freely do for us? And who would dare tangle with God by messing with one of God's chosen? Who would dare even to point a finger? The One who died for us—who was raised to life for us!—is in the presence of God at this very moment sticking up for us. Do you think anyone is going to be able to drive a wedge between us and Christ's love for us? There is no way! Not trouble, not hard times, not hatred, not hunger, not homelessness, not bullying threats, not backstabbing, not even the worst sins listed in Scripture:
They kill us in cold blood because they hate you.
We're sitting ducks; they pick us off one by one.
None of this fazes us because Jesus loves us. I'm absolutely convinced that nothing—nothing living or dead, angelic or demonic, today or tomorrow, high or low, thinkable or unthinkable—absolutely nothing can get between us and God's love because of the way that Jesus our Master has embraced us."
Romans 8:31-39 (The Message)
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