Sweetly Broken

I don't even know where to begin with my revelation from yesterday. I think you can tell by my previous blog that my husband and I have been struggling in our marriage. We have struggled pretty much from day 1. Mainly because we both brought baggage into the marriage and in the midst of it all there have been situations that I have been unable to forgive or forget..or should I say I have not really chosen to forgive or forget. I've been very angry with my husband and it's showed to him each and every day. Don't get me wrong there have been some awesome days with him as well.
I was talking to a few friends yesterday and talking about what I want to do with my life. How I want God to use me. The first thing God showed me in the conversations was my youngest son's face. God asked me if I would be able to forgive your son for things he's done when he gets back. He said "Will you continue to tear him down or will you allow him to heal and move on?" Of course my immediate response was of course I will love on him and build him up. And He said then why won't you do that for your husband? And he showed me my son's face and then Brett's face. He showed me in the sadness in both.
The second moment of revelation was when I was talking about how I wanted so much to move on what God has ready for me. And God told me that He has called all wives to be helpmates to their husbands. Wives sometimes hear the word submit and they think it's something negative, but it's submitting to God and helping our husbands. If we love our husbands and allow God to use us to build them up, the submission will be easy. God will build the love and trust in us as we cheer our husbands on and in the process He will allow our husbands to love us the way we need to be loved. Of course if you know me at all, I argued with God. I said "But God I want to do things for you and my husband is holding me back!" And He sweetly said back to me, "My Child your husband is not holding you back, by not being his helpmate you are holding him back."
Needless to say these revelations changed my heart immediately. I cannot explain it but I repented on my knees and wrapped my arms around my husband last night and cried uncontrollably and kept telling him "I'm sorry" and at one point I said "I need you to look at me and realize just how sorry I am for tearing you down and not being the wife I need to be for you."
So now I realize how I am going to find out who I am and how God sees me. He will use my husband to show me! I thank God for being "Sweetly Broken" so that I can fulfill my most important call on my life. To be the best wife I can possibly be!

"He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds." Psalm 147:3

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