Please protect me Father

I am sitting here wondering if life will be different. I know that it is different from the way I used to live and see it but I mean "truly" different. I want to wake up each morning excited for the day. Not to just be okay with it but absolutely be in love with the day and my life.
I put myself in a situation last night that made me feel very unsafe. I felt vulnerable in a way that brought back feelings of wanting desperately to feel protected by someone. I wanted someone to wrap their arms around me and just make it be okay. I started thinking back to when I was in 6th grade. I moved from a very small school to a larger one. I went from about 4-6 in my class to around 80. There was some excitement with that but also fear. What started out as a chance to see life differently to "hiding out". I had a boy in my class that would stalk me. He would treat me okay if I was his girlfriend but if I ever decided to "break up" with him, as middle schoolers call break up, then he would make my life miserable. If I wouldn't be a part of his life then he would make sure everyone else in our class would have attitudes with me. I was to the point that I would skip school or try to avoid him and everyone else. I specifically remember hiding out in the bathroom during recess because I knew if I stepped foot outside he was going to do "something". I had a teacher come into the bathroom and let me know that I needed to be outside so I reluctantly went out and once I stepped foot outside there was a teacher standing right there. I thought "Thank goodness. Someone is here to protect me." The first words out of this teacher's mouth was "Hiding out in the bathroom huh?" And then he started laughing and guess who was right behind him? This boy! And he took my arm and threw me around till I finally flew to the ground and this teacher watched and laughed.
I've waited my whole life to feel like someone loved me enough to protect me. And even though I know I have a Heavenly Father that absolutely loves me there are times I feel like He could have done more to protect me...that he could have let people show me love when I really needed it. And then He reminded me this morning that He did protect me from this boy in my class. He might have been able to mentally, verbally and physically abuse me in middle school but God stepped in before it went any further. This boy came to my house one night knowing that I was home alone babysitting my little sister. My dad and mom had just gotten home from a dance and the doorbell rang. My dad told this boy that I was in bed and to leave me alone. So this boy went to my friend's house immediately after and raped my friend. It could have been me! I regret that it was my friend but I know that God stopped that event from happening to me.
Sometimes we look at the bad things and forget about the good things even if there are few of them. We need to look at all the good that surrounds us and not focus on the one bad part. I know that once I am completely and utterly focused on God at all times that all hell can come against me and I will be okay. Because Christ made it okay and Satan wants me to lose sight of that. Satan wants me to fall apart at the seams and I refuse. I may have lost a lot throughout my childhood but the one thing I will never have lost and that is that I am a child of the most High and He sacrificed His Son so that I can have eternal life. No one else will ever do that for me. No one else can protect me the way that He can. And in the midst of the trials that surround me right now, I know if I stand strong I will survive and wake up to the excitement of each and every day!

"But he's already made it plain how to live, what to do,what God is looking for in men and women. It's quite simple: Do what is fair and just to your neighbor, be compassionate and loyal in your love, And don't take yourself too seriously— take God seriously." Micah 6:8 (The Message)