End to 2009

My husband and I were praying this morning and he said something about 2010 and my first thought was I'm so glad that this year is over. It seems like a very long year but one that I know I will look back on and realize it structured and prepared my family and I for the bigger things to come. I do feel like God is preparing me for something. I am unsure of what that might be but excited at the prospect of it. So many challenges this past year.....marriage, business, but most of all struggles with my youngest son. And as I am writing this - he is away from me. He is at a private school and getting some much needed healing of his own. I don't know what true grieving of a child is, but I can't imagine what it must feel like because right now I feel like my world has come to an end. I never knew I could miss someone so much! So I pray as God heals my heart throughout this year, that my son is doing the same thing.
Tomorrow I start my journey of "Finding Georgie Ann". I realized I am a little nervous about opening up my heart and soul for anyone to get a glimpse of, but I also know I want my vulnerability to help someone else. Otherwise what is the point? My life and the struggles within it will not be in vain. I need for God to use my life and testimony to change other people's lives. Otherwise Satan won the battle and I refuse for that to happen. Satan wanted me destroyed and at times came really close, but I have a Father that stepped in each and every time and saved me. And so do you! Cry out and see what happens. You are not alone. Even at times when it feels like it.

"But I call to God, and the LORD saves me. Evening, morning and noon I cry out in distress, and he hears my voice. He ransoms me unharmed from the battle waged against me, even though many oppose me." Psalm 55:16-18

Preparation Mode

I am currently in preparation mode for the new year and what God has in store for me. I think about what I will be doing on this blog. It is a call to be vulnerable and that scares me to say the least. But I also know my vulnerability will hopefully help other people on their journey to become who they were created to be minus the bad things dealt to them throughout their lives. As of January 1, 2010 I will be writing my daily battles and victories in finding the little girl lost years ago and find the woman I was meant to be. I hope you will take this journey with me and find your true self as well.

"Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy." Psalm 126:5